as much as

As much as I want to be with you
As much as I think we can never be together

I give up even before I started

Because I'm just too coward
to admit that you're attractive
even when you're not my type

Because I'm too afraid
to resist the stereotype
that we don't belong in the same level

Because,
I can't practice what I preach
I grasp the theory really well
but never really good at the practice

said that love conquer everything
for me, to be true
it's not enough

Because,
I really look into people's thought
I do mind people's judge